Saturday, December 7, 2013

Let Go and Let God

I had a pow pow with my boss and a co-worker today and in the middle of it, God spoke to me so here I am, with tears in my eyes, typing this.

I have preached and preached about trusting God when it comes to love but I have never you told you about the struggles that I had to deal with and fight through in order to keep my faith strong and keep believing in love. Growing up, my parents were always great. I'm not going to say that my childhood was perfect but I pretty much never saw my parents fighting over anything major. The trouble began when I was a teenager. Parents are supposed to be the prime example for their children when it comes to true love. They are supposed to teach their children that true love exists and to show them how beautiful love is when God brings two people together. Just like you are supposed to be faithful to God, you're always supposed to be faithful to your partner. My dad seemed to forget this for a while... Needless to say, my father has had multiple affairs on my mom. As the youngest and only daughter, I looked up to my dad like he was superman so how was I supposed to feel? I could not believe that my superman turned into the villain. 

I was so hurt. I was also SO mad at God. How could He do this to my family? How could He do this to me? How could He take a perfectly healthy family and put them in this scenario where they are all hurting so bad?  I would pray so hard that my family would be fixed and that nothing would hurt my mother like that again. I would pray that I could trust men again. 

I continued to pray and to go to church for a long time, and God continued to speak to me but for some reason, I just couldn't accept it in my heart. He would tell me that everything would be okay, to have faith in Him, to trust Him but I would continue to be so skeptical. After 2 more affairs, almost a divorce, and being cheated on myself, something in me just... clicked.  I just remember that one day I was in my apartment listening to Elevation worship music then all of a sudden I just felt overcome with God's love. I fell to my knees and just trusted Him that everything would really be okay. I realized that there was a difference between saying that I trusted God and actually handing myself over to Him and saying "whatever You're doing, You're doing it for a reason. You've got my best interest in mind." 

Slowly but surely, I began to see the world through different eyes. I began to realize that there were still good guys in the world - men who don't cheat, who don't lie, who can actually love you and only you. I finally trusted God with every fiber in my body. I began to pray for my future husband and that God would mold me into the woman that my future husband needed and deserved. I prayed that He helped me remain patient while He prepared us for each other. 

.... And then I met Wesley. This man is the most romantic, faithful, and handsome man that I have ever met. I fell for him hard, and I fell for him fast. I wouldn't change that for the world. I knew from the beginning that this is the man that I am meant to be with for the rest of my life. I am thankful that I went through everything that I did because at the end of the day, I would not appreciate this man the way that he deserves. The wait and journey was not fun, but it was worth it. 

So in conclusion, you may have to go through some really rough things but that should not stop you from realizing that God has your best interest in mind. People used to tell me that God never gives you more than He knows you can handle. Well, I think that He does. He wants you to realize that when you can't handle it anymore, He'll be there for you. You just have to trust Him. 

Ahh.. If you actually made it this far in the post, I applaud you. I hope that I have inspired you or given you hope. I hope you realize that just because one man did you wrong, it does not mean that every man will. God loves you. He wants what's best for you. Trust Him.

Love, M. 

“...You say to God, “I have never seen you provide for me.” 

God says to you, “You have never trusted Me.” 

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

The In Between

So M texted me today asking if I would write a blog. As many of you know, I have only written one blog on here before because quite frankly I don't think I can write and I really never have anything important that I think y'all would actually want to read. But here recently I've started to realize that maybe my life is more relatable than I think it is. Y'all know that M is in a relationship and extremely happy with him (YAY!) but my love life is rather lackluster. Guys come into my life just as quickly as they run away. I get the "Oh you're so great that the idea of being with you scares me." card all the time. It's seriously so annoying. It has made me be very standoff-ish towards relationships and anything involving them. I push people away, I don't allow them to get too close because hey what's the point? They won't stick around long anyway. But when M asked me to blog today I knew exactly what this blog should be about. The in between stage with a guy, where you're not exactly sure where you stand with him.

Disclaimer: I'm writing this with the hopes that the guy I'm going to be writing about doesn't read this. So fingers crossed for that.

SO before this gets going, you need a little bit of background to speed you up to where we are today. I transferred schools this semester, I'm a fourth year biology major and I recently joined a sorority (Go Gamma Phi!) So obviously being at a new school I had to meet new people and make new friends. My sorority really helped me with that thank goodness. And being newly single at this school it was also a whole new playing field for the guys. I met a guy, and at the beginning it was nothing but harmless flirting. But then I quickly started questioning if there was something more. I mean on my end I knew that there could be for me, but who knows what goes through a man's head nowadays. We had our ups and downs and plenty of fights over the silliest things which ultimately ended up in us not speaking for roughly three weeks. One night while I was actually at M's apartment he texted me and I just put everything out on the table. Mind you, I'm not one to beat around the bush when it comes to feelings and what not, I'm too old to play that game. Things got better between us and we both apologized for the things we had done and that night to prove to him that I still cared about him we ended up hanging out for hours and talking. Everything went back to normal where we were seeing each other on a daily basis and hanging out and talking all the time. He ended up asking me to his fraternities semi formal (I tweeted a picture about that, it was super cute) and obviously I'm stressing about a dress and all that. But every time we hang out I just can't help but wonder, is there more on his end that I don't know about. I mean with the way things in the past have been with us, I'm just taking it day by day to see where things go but it's driving me NUTS. I just want to know…

I'm sure I'm not the only one stuck in the in between of not knowing. Clearly something is there but I guess patience really is a virtue and if you know anything about me, I do not possess it. I mean seriously girls, why are guys so freaking difficult? It's really not that hard of a concept to just be like "Oh hey. Your face, yeah I like that!" and then all they have to do is be like "Yeah me too! It's pretty." Geez guys, get your stuff together and just man up.

I guess maybe I should wrap this up, cause its pretty long. Who knows, maybe he will read it and do something, or maybe the guy that you are in the in between with will read this because you "forgot" you left it pulled up on the computer for him to see and he will make a move. A girl can wish, right?

Much love,

Sunday, December 1, 2013

The Ultimate Christmas Guide: Chubbies

Hey ladies,

We've had so many of y'all ask us about different ideas for Christmas presents so I'm going to make it real easy for y'all. I'm not a HUGE fan of getting guys clothes for Christmas but sometimes it's an easy route to take. It's not uncommon knowledge that both girls who run the account are both obsessed with Chubbies because they pretty much has the perfect shorts for ANY guy. I'm currently in LOVE with their Sport Utility Shorts. They're pretty much perfect for any guy who loves nature or being attractive. 

My personal favorites are the Smokies. I recently got these in the mail and I can honestly say that I'm obsessed with them. These are so perfect. They're 100% cotton with deep pockets in the front and back, and are just so stinkin' sexy. 

The Smokies

The second best thing is that they come in a box that you can just wrap right away and place right under the tree. This way they stay out of sight of curious eyes! 

I'll be posting more ideas soon! I'm just waiting for more things to come in since I ordered them kind of late but I had to post this ASAP! 


Love, M.