So M texted me today asking if I would write a blog. As many of you know, I have only written one blog on here before because quite frankly I don't think I can write and I really never have anything important that I think y'all would actually want to read. But here recently I've started to realize that maybe my life is more relatable than I think it is. Y'all know that M is in a relationship and extremely happy with him (YAY!) but my love life is rather lackluster. Guys come into my life just as quickly as they run away. I get the "Oh you're so great that the idea of being with you scares me." card all the time. It's seriously so annoying. It has made me be very standoff-ish towards relationships and anything involving them. I push people away, I don't allow them to get too close because hey what's the point? They won't stick around long anyway. But when M asked me to blog today I knew exactly what this blog should be about. The in between stage with a guy, where you're not exactly sure where you stand with him.
Disclaimer: I'm writing this with the hopes that the guy I'm going to be writing about doesn't read this. So fingers crossed for that.
SO before this gets going, you need a little bit of background to speed you up to where we are today. I transferred schools this semester, I'm a fourth year biology major and I recently joined a sorority (Go Gamma Phi!) So obviously being at a new school I had to meet new people and make new friends. My sorority really helped me with that thank goodness. And being newly single at this school it was also a whole new playing field for the guys. I met a guy, and at the beginning it was nothing but harmless flirting. But then I quickly started questioning if there was something more. I mean on my end I knew that there could be for me, but who knows what goes through a man's head nowadays. We had our ups and downs and plenty of fights over the silliest things which ultimately ended up in us not speaking for roughly three weeks. One night while I was actually at M's apartment he texted me and I just put everything out on the table. Mind you, I'm not one to beat around the bush when it comes to feelings and what not, I'm too old to play that game. Things got better between us and we both apologized for the things we had done and that night to prove to him that I still cared about him we ended up hanging out for hours and talking. Everything went back to normal where we were seeing each other on a daily basis and hanging out and talking all the time. He ended up asking me to his fraternities semi formal (I tweeted a picture about that, it was super cute) and obviously I'm stressing about a dress and all that. But every time we hang out I just can't help but wonder, is there more on his end that I don't know about. I mean with the way things in the past have been with us, I'm just taking it day by day to see where things go but it's driving me NUTS. I just want to know…
I'm sure I'm not the only one stuck in the in between of not knowing. Clearly something is there but I guess patience really is a virtue and if you know anything about me, I do not possess it. I mean seriously girls, why are guys so freaking difficult? It's really not that hard of a concept to just be like "Oh hey. Your face, yeah I like that!" and then all they have to do is be like "Yeah me too! It's pretty." Geez guys, get your stuff together and just man up.
I guess maybe I should wrap this up, cause its pretty long. Who knows, maybe he will read it and do something, or maybe the guy that you are in the in between with will read this because you "forgot" you left it pulled up on the computer for him to see and he will make a move. A girl can wish, right?